“I believe that it is good to be alive now. I did not really feel like that for a really very long time,” the “What Was I Made For” singer recalled whereas accepting the Chairman’s Award for the tune on the Palm Springs Movie Awards.

Whereas accepting the Chairman’s Award alongside her brother Finneas O’Connell on the Palm Springs Movie Awards on Thursday night time, the 22-year-old singer revealed she was in the course of a “darkish episode” and had ideas of not eager to be alive anymore on the time she wrote the monitor.

“I would like to say that this award and any recognition that this tune will get, I simply need to dedicate to anybody who experiences hopelessness, the sensation of existential dread and feeling like, what is the level, and why am I right here and what am I doing this for?” Billie started, per The Hollywood Reporter.

“I believe all of us really feel like that sometimes, however I believe if any individual like me, with the quantity of privilege that I’ve and the unbelievable issues that I get to do and be and the way I’ve actually not needed to be right here — sorry to be darkish, rattling — however I’ve spent loads of time feeling that approach,” she continued. “I simply need to say to anybody that feels that approach, be affected person with your self and know that it’s, I believe, price all of it. I believe that it is good to be alive now. I did not really feel like that for a really very long time.”

“Particularly once we have been requested to jot down this tune, I used to be in a darkish episode, I assume, and issues did not make sense, like, life. I simply did not perceive what the purpose was and why you’ll preserve going,” Billie added. “[I was] questioning all the things on the earth.”

Billie recalled the second when she and Finneas have been proven footage from the movie by director Greta Gerwig.

“I used to be sitting there subsequent to Finneas, it was simply the 2 of us on this theater, principally,” she stated. “I used to be simply watching Barbie, Barbie, say and really feel issues that I actually, actually, actually resonated with and felt so near. I felt so seen, and I didn’t count on that.

“I believe that this film is probably the most unbelievable, most empowering, and delightful, and humorous, and simply unbelievable piece of artwork on the earth, and I am so so honored to be part of it,” Billie added, earlier than passing the microphone over to her brother, who spoke about their upbringing and expressed his gratitude towards their dad and mom.

“What Was I Made For” has already obtained a handful of awards nominations, together with  Golden Globe and Critics’ Selection Awards nominations for Finest Unique Track. The monitor additionally picked up a whopping 5 Grammy nods, together with Report of the Yr and Track of Yr. Billie and Finneas are predicted to be nominated for Finest Unique Track on the 2024 Academy Awards as properly.

This is not the primary time Billie and Finneas have obtained recognition and accolades for a tune recorded on a film soundtrack. The duo beforehand swept the 2021/2022 awards season for “No Time to Die” from the James Bond film of the identical time, successful an Oscar, Golden Globe, Critics’ Selection Award, and a Grammy for the tune.

In the event you or somebody you understand is scuffling with despair or has had ideas of harming themselves or taking their very own life, get assist. The Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) gives 24/7, free, confidential help for folks in misery.