Candiace Dillard noticed her life flash earlier than her eyes shortly after giving beginning to her first youngster, a son named Jett, with husband Chris Bassett.

The “Actual Housewives of Potomac” alum ultimately found — and is being handled for — a blood clot in her left ovary, however the days main as much as that revelation had been debilitating each bodily and mentally.

“There have been moments the place I felt like I used to be going to die, like, if I’m simply being very sincere,” Dillard, who welcomed her child boy on Oct. 3, tells Web page Six in an unique interview.

“I keep in mind saying that to Chris, like, ‘I really feel like I’m going to die.’ And he’s like, ‘Don’t say that.’ And it was simply actually intense. Yeah, it was actually scary,” she recollects, noting that she doesn’t “wish to cry.”

However the R&B singer, 37, can’t cease her tears as she admits she started to spiral about what Jett’s future would seem like with no mom.

“Am I going to reside lengthy sufficient for my my son to know me? … Am I on borrowed time? … Am I a ticking time bomb?” she thought to herself, confessing that she “nonetheless grapple[s]” with whether or not she’s “OK” and “doing every little thing [she’s] presupposed to be doing.”

For the “foreseeable future,” she has to inject herself with anticoagulants twice day by day.

Dillard credit her father, an emergency medication doctor, with ensuring she sought assist instantly.

She tells us she texted him all her signs, which included “a fever of 103 [degrees Fahrenheit]” and “excruciating decrease stomach ache,” which weren’t being remedied by round the clock “Tylenol and Ibuprofen.”

She explains she “couldn’t stroll,” “sit up,” “eat” or “breastfeed.”

“When you may have a brand-new child, you wish to mom. And that’s simply such an terrible feeling — to not have the ability to mom my youngster,” she laments.

Dillard can also be grateful for Bassett, who has three older kids from two earlier relationships, describing him as a “succesful, wonderful, lively associate” who took care of each his spouse and their toddler in her time of want.

She goes on to reward her mother, Dorothy Watts — aka Jett’s “glam-ma” — for spending these first two weeks cooking, cleansing and singing her grandson the identical lullabies she used to sing to Dillard.

As if her bodily situation was not sufficient, the previous Bravolebrity was additionally “coping with postpartum blues after which feeling depressed.”

“The postpartum interval is a really delicate time, and it’s a time while you actually should hearken to your physique and never be afraid to say, ‘OK, this doesn’t really feel proper. This isn’t how that is presupposed to be. This isn’t simply common postpartum. That is one thing else.’ And for me, it was one thing else,” she shares.

“You hear about folks with blood clots, and so they go to their lungs or their mind, and so they’re out of right here! And as a younger, wholesome girl who labored out my whole being pregnant, who has all the time eaten proper, it’s, like, are you kidding me? Like, why? Like, why would I’ve this concern?”

The “Drive Again” hitmaker tells us she is now “in postpartum remedy” — which she “extremely suggest[s], whether or not you’re going by means of well being issues or not” — on the behest of her obstetrician/gynecologist.

“Your mind goes by means of a lot, and you’ve got the most important hormone drop of life while you give beginning,” she emphasizes. “It could possibly manifest in so many alternative methods, and also you simply don’t know what you don’t know.”

Dillard says she’s “been higher, rather a lot higher,” since getting her bodily and psychological well being below management.

“I’ve been in a position to smother my child, placed on somewhat little bit of make-up and might get right into a routine that feels good to me,” reveals the previous Miss United States winner, who provides that she doesn’t remorse pausing labor for a couple of minutes to verify her glam was on level for her son’s arrival.

Although her postpartum expertise to date has been “the least enjoyable, zero stars,” her being pregnant, labor (after her second epidural labored) and supply had been a breeze.

In actual fact, she gushes that as she started to crown, her physician let her really feel Jett’s “head and his little hair” earlier than giving Dillard the OK to “pull him out” herself — à la Kourtney Kardashian.