In an interview with PEOPLE for its newest cowl story, Holker — who mentioned her new e book, This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Gentle — claimed she allegedly found a “cornucopia” of Boss’ drug paraphernalia of their closet whereas “choosing out an outfit” for him to put on for his funeral. The Ellen DeGeneres Present co-executive producer, SYTYCD alum, and longtime DJ died by suicide at age 40 in December 2022.

“Our household is completely appalled by the deceptive and hurtful claims made about my son, Stephen Boss,” his mom shared in a put up to Instagram. “The current publications spreading untruths about Stephen have crossed each line of decency. As his mom, I cannot let these accusations go unanswered. We won’t stand by whereas his title and legacy are tarnished. He does not deserve this, and the children do not deserve this.”

“For the final two years, I’ve remained quiet and away from the general public eye to guard my household. My main focus has been on therapeutic and trying to stay linked to my grandchildren,” she continued. “However once I learn these dreadful claims about my child, our beloved Stephen, I spotted I couldn’t keep silent any longer.”

She concluded her assertion: “Our household will guarantee his title and reminiscence are protected, and we’re dedicated to defending his honor.”

Taking to her Instagram Story on Wednesday, earlier than his mom’s assertion, Holker defended herself from her late husband’s mates, household and followers.

She wrote that her “solely intention” in writing her e book was “to share my very own story in addition to a part of my life with Stephen to assist different folks.”

“Similar to you, I by no means actually knew what occurred, and whilst I’m making an attempt to place the items collectively, I’ll by no means actually know,” she continued, saying her “intention is to have a good time the love and life I shared with Stephen and our three lovely youngsters, and likewise the extra advanced elements of each our lives.”

She additionally stated she hoped her story may assist others “catch some crimson flags that I missed earlier than it is too late.”

Per Holker, all of the proceeds from her e book are going to a psychological well being group she began in her late husband’s honor, Transfer with Kindness.

“I imagine that if Stephen had been in a position to decide on, he would select to have his story advised if it meant saving even one life,” she concluded. “A lot like to all those that have supported our household these a few years.”

When you or somebody you understand is battling melancholy or has had ideas of harming themselves or taking their very own life, get assist. The Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) offers 24/7, free, confidential assist for folks in misery.