On Sunday’s all new episode of Sister Wives, Robyn and husband Kody Brown detailed how their lives have modified since going from a plural marriage with fellow wives Janelle Brown, Christine Brown and Meri Brown to a monogamous relationship inside the previous couple of years.

“I really feel actually powerless, and I really feel it is simply extra of my dream slipping away,” Robyn mentioned in a confessional after Kody advised her he sees no hope of reconciliation along with his ex-wives. “It is extra of what I hoped for slipping away. I simply do not know easy methods to let it go.”

However for Kody, even with Robyn expressing her hopes that he may be capable of repair his relationship with not less than Janelle, he is aware of the previous is the previous.

“I’ve considered this for an entire yr or two with Janelle, we’re not in love,” Kody advised Robyn. “Me and Janelle simply do not wish to be round one another. She desires to do issues totally different than what I wish to do. We’re simply not matching up.”

Regardless of this, Robyn admitted in her confessional, “I simply nonetheless suppose that they might work it out.”

However Kody is bound that it will not, with Robyn’s heartbreak over the lack of their plural marriage prompting some fear within the Brown household patriarch.

“Will you settle for me as a monogamist? Is there an issue with that?” he requested her.

Robyn advised him she’ll “all the time follow,” however admitted in a confessional that “this isn’t what I needed for my life. I am simply kind of caught.”

“No matter I’ve finished in these marriages, they’re finished,” Kody advised Robyn, adamant that his prior lives along with his former wives are over. “No matter occurred between me and them, I am finished. I am not going to repair it with Meri. I am not going to attempt to repair it with Janelle anymore. She’s finished with me.”

“I miss nothing,” the daddy of 18 added of his former life — besides “the love” of his youngsters.

Unable to let it go, Robyn questioned whether or not Kody actually liked his former wives.

“However you, like, fell in love and was in love with every of them, although, proper?” she requested him. “Like, you are saying a variety of actually totally different, unusual belongings you’ve by no means mentioned earlier than about loving them and never loving them. It has been bizarre.”

Whereas Kody admitted to Robyn he hadn’t understood “deep divine love” in his first marriages, he is now prepared to shut the e book on them … and this dialog.

“What do I’ve to say to make you really let it go?” he requested her. “I would like you to let that go for me and never maintain it towards me.”

Reflecting on Robyn becoming a member of their household, Kody added, “I should have bought her one thing particular as a result of she got here in desirous to be a part of this particular factor,” he famous. “And now that it is falling aside, it is messing together with her.”

Elsewhere in the course of the episode, Kody opened up about shedding his virginity in school, one thing he mentioned he nonetheless regrets to today.

“I had a lover in school, and it was a bit of tryst,” Kody mentioned in a confessional. The truth star confessed he was “a naughty boy based mostly on my religion” due to the dalliance.

“I had a relationship in school the place I misplaced my virginity,” he shared. “It was devastating to me. It was heartbreaking.”

Since “purity” was “every thing” in his religion, Kody mentioned having intercourse out of wedlock messed with him. “It is such as you’re working your approach again for it,” he advised the cameras, reiterating, “It’s devastating.”

Robyn helped him by it, nevertheless, with Kody including that he advised her about it within the first month, noting that Meri additionally knew about it, however he by no means advised Christine or Janelle as a result of he wasn’t as shut along with his former wives.

Whereas being a monogamist is a “bizarre” feeling for Kody, he mentioned he desires Robyn to see his value after going by the lack of three relationships in such a brief time frame.

“It is a bizarre place to be the place I am a monogamist now. Not out of some sort of alternative, so to talk, however out of a consummate failure in marriage relationships,” he mentioned to the cameras. “I’ve had three girls who’ve determined I am not value it.”

“I do not need Robyn to see me as nugatory,” Kody added earlier than asking. “Am I actually sort of simply not value it?”

Sister Wives airs on TLC Sundays at 10:00 p.m. ET.